I have a question for readers of this blog, both casual and committed. Where do you stand on this whole Satan thing?
Many, if not most, Christians in America regard Satan as chief among the fallen; that is, they believe that Lucifer was created as the highest of all angels, second in power and authority only to God. His status led to pride, and Lucifer led a third of the heavenly host in rebellion against God. They failed, were cast out of heaven, and while they await final judgment, they do what they can to mar God's creation. In short, Lucifer became Satan, the devil; and the angels who rebelled with him became demons.
The difficult thing about this is that it's largely extrabiblical if not unbiblical. The story I just summarized is found in the book "Paradise Lost," by John Milton, and not any of the 66 biblical books Protestant Christians consider to be canon.
The ancient Hebrews considered the Satan to be an agent of God, rather than an evil creature bent on the ruin of God's plans. His job was to take a contrary view so that the truth could be determined through thorough cross-examination, a role much like the "Devil's advocate" we use in argument today.
We see this principally in the book of Job, where ha-Satan comes before the Presence. There is no remonstration or hostility expressed, just the question, "Have you considered my servant Job?" and the response, "Does Job love you for nothing? Look at all you've given him." The result of this challenge is the process just described: God removes all that Job has, and Job continues to worship him.
The role also surfaces in the parallel accounts of the census David took in the latter days of his reign, in 2 Samuel and in 1 Chronicles. In 2 Samuel 24, God incites David to take the census and then smites him; in 1 Chronicles 21, it is Satan who makes the suggestion. You also can see this notion of a heavenly court with advisers in 1 Kings 22, when the prophet Micaiah describes an angel that suggests putting a lying spirit into the mouths of Ahab's prophets so that Ahab will go to battle and be slain.
That view of ha-Satan is not entirely what we see in the New Testament, but that that is largely because we read the New Testament with preconceptions about who Satan is. The tempting in the wilderness is similar in nature to the testing of Job, to see what Jesus is made of.
Even when the Bible tells us about Jesus casting demons out of people, the term is better rendered as "unclean spirits," as the footnotes in the New International Version indicate. The afflictions described in the gospels -- epileptic fits, self-inflicted injury, aphasia -- can be seen as coming from a medical or psychological condition, which also would qualify as an "unclean spirit" in a poetic sense.
As a matter of religious history, the view of Satan as subservient to God did shift to the more familiar dualistic one during the intertestamental "silent period." During this period, Judaism acquired the noton of a devil from Zoroastrianism, another Eastern religion practiced near Judea. It lost the concept shortly after the destruction after the Second Temple, and resumed its previous view, namely that ha-Satan was an officer of the heavenly court, subservient to God.
Precisely because it is late in coming, I think we need to view such a dualist God/Satan view of the world with some suspicion. Don't we say that older revelation is the standard by which we gauge newer revelation?
If it weren't for passages of Scripture like Isaiah 49, which speak of God's desire to bring the Gentiles into his kingdom, or for places like Zechariah 12, which Christians believe foretell the Crucifixion, it would be harder to see a connection between the Tanakh and Christianity as we know it and practice it today.
So tell me, whether you're a regular guest here or a new visitor, what you think. Does the Bible actually teach about a devil, or that somethng we misunderstood and have all wrong?
Copyright 2008 by David Learn. Used with permission.
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Sunday, April 27, 2008
In Search Of: A Job
After 40 months of being a stay-at-home dad, I have begun dipping my toes back into professional waters. My first resume in more than three years went out last week, and now a second is about to join it.
It's time, and it's necessary. Our daughter Rachel is ready to begin first grade at the charter school in September, money is tight as all get-out right now, and the grant that pays for my wife's job is about to run dry in another six weeks.
It's a bittersweet passing, to be honest, but it's time. One of us needs to get a job, and it'd be nice if it paid something like $60,000 or so. (Though with the state of the USD right now, I'm thinking Euros might be better.) We've been making ends meet on around two-thirds of that, but this is the costliest state to live in, and it'd be nice not to have to scrounge quite so much.
It's time, and it's necessary. Our daughter Rachel is ready to begin first grade at the charter school in September, money is tight as all get-out right now, and the grant that pays for my wife's job is about to run dry in another six weeks.
It's a bittersweet passing, to be honest, but it's time. One of us needs to get a job, and it'd be nice if it paid something like $60,000 or so. (Though with the state of the USD right now, I'm thinking Euros might be better.) We've been making ends meet on around two-thirds of that, but this is the costliest state to live in, and it'd be nice not to have to scrounge quite so much.
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
my job officially sucks
So here I am at work, and I've had enough of this ####ing #### to choke a camel to death. It's 3:35 a.m. and I only stopped myself from going completely postal earlier tonight (this morning?) by taking some time off to worship and to decompress before I complete the last stretch.
This job is just too much for too little. I'm gone from home two whole days out of the week, with the result that Natasha is unduly stressed-out on those days, and she handles it generally worse than I do, which is rough on the girls.
I can't stay here. I just can't. But, thanks to years of living hand-to-mouth, we don't have a cushion to handle a period of unemployment longer than 12 hours, and we certainly don't have any insurance if I quit this job. I need to quit anyway, which I cannot do unless I can find that safety net.
The PR sideline has not taken off yet, since I haven't had time to finish the web site and finish my promotional material for the different groups I'm trying to appeal to. The only contract I have so far is the barter for art lessons, which -- nice at is -- will not pay the bills.
If I had a church, I'd be calling the pastor to see if the church can offer us any support while we take a step out, particularly support I can work for. We have no church, though, nor any real network I can fall back upon. I'm thinking of calling the pastor of the church we've been attending for the last two months, although if the truth is to be told, I'm not wild about it by any stretch of the imagination. Pillar of Fire is an island church, where they inadvertantly -- at least I assume it's inadvertant -- foster a Christian subculture that is largely removed from and uninvolved with the world at large.
I wouldn't mind returning to the missions field, but my impression right now is that we're where we're supposed to be. I don't know how much of that is wisdom, how much of it is contentment and how much of it is the world finding its place in me, but there you have it.
Natasha and I have discussed relocating at various points, but we've always ended up settling on staying in Iowa. It must be that masochistic streak.
I'm at the breaking point, and something has to give.
This job is just too much for too little. I'm gone from home two whole days out of the week, with the result that Natasha is unduly stressed-out on those days, and she handles it generally worse than I do, which is rough on the girls.
I can't stay here. I just can't. But, thanks to years of living hand-to-mouth, we don't have a cushion to handle a period of unemployment longer than 12 hours, and we certainly don't have any insurance if I quit this job. I need to quit anyway, which I cannot do unless I can find that safety net.
The PR sideline has not taken off yet, since I haven't had time to finish the web site and finish my promotional material for the different groups I'm trying to appeal to. The only contract I have so far is the barter for art lessons, which -- nice at is -- will not pay the bills.
If I had a church, I'd be calling the pastor to see if the church can offer us any support while we take a step out, particularly support I can work for. We have no church, though, nor any real network I can fall back upon. I'm thinking of calling the pastor of the church we've been attending for the last two months, although if the truth is to be told, I'm not wild about it by any stretch of the imagination. Pillar of Fire is an island church, where they inadvertantly -- at least I assume it's inadvertant -- foster a Christian subculture that is largely removed from and uninvolved with the world at large.
I wouldn't mind returning to the missions field, but my impression right now is that we're where we're supposed to be. I don't know how much of that is wisdom, how much of it is contentment and how much of it is the world finding its place in me, but there you have it.
Natasha and I have discussed relocating at various points, but we've always ended up settling on staying in Iowa. It must be that masochistic streak.
I'm at the breaking point, and something has to give.
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
job update redux
I found out tonight from a co-worker that he's not supposed to tell anyone, but he's going to be going up to our Bloomfield office for that position I mentioned four months ago. It's going to be his job to get the office into shape, oversee the other managing editors, and so on.
I'm happy for him, but I'm a little disappointed that they've shafted me like this after leading me to think I was the top contender for that post. Tim, our editor in chief, even went as far as telling in front of one of the owners that he considers me flat-out his best managing editor.
Actually, I'm not just a little disappointed by this arrangement. I'm furious. Nathan -- the guy they are moving -- is among other things, fairly lazy about his job, incredibly arrogant and know-it-all-ish, and the way he speaks about women, he's a lawsuit waiting to happen.
My best bet is that the decision was largely pecuniary. I already make $35K, and said I would need to make at least $40K if they were going to give me added responsibilities. Nathan on the other hand makes about $26K. He'll be making under $30K in Bloomfield office, and the reporter they've moving into his spot will probably make about $26K, while they'll replace her with someone they'll pay their dirt-cheap rate of $20K. If they figure I'll also get pissed off and quit, they can probably save another $15K when they replace me with a college graduate.
I don't want to be motivated just by money, and I don't think I am. But it's hard to feed a family of four on what I make here, the hours are brutal, and the work load keeps increasing. They're about to eliminate the production shop and have the managing editors handle all the pagination duties as well, as a cost-cutting measure. It's not like we don't already have to write four to six stories and four editorials a week, plus edit and lay out two whole papers.
I'm really sick of this. I sent out two resumes before I came to work today, on top of the two I sent out last week. I need another job, and I need it to be one where I can settle in for an extended period. Or I need my wife to find gainful employment so I can stay at home with the girls.
Something has to give. I just can't take this anymore.
I'm happy for him, but I'm a little disappointed that they've shafted me like this after leading me to think I was the top contender for that post. Tim, our editor in chief, even went as far as telling in front of one of the owners that he considers me flat-out his best managing editor.
Actually, I'm not just a little disappointed by this arrangement. I'm furious. Nathan -- the guy they are moving -- is among other things, fairly lazy about his job, incredibly arrogant and know-it-all-ish, and the way he speaks about women, he's a lawsuit waiting to happen.
My best bet is that the decision was largely pecuniary. I already make $35K, and said I would need to make at least $40K if they were going to give me added responsibilities. Nathan on the other hand makes about $26K. He'll be making under $30K in Bloomfield office, and the reporter they've moving into his spot will probably make about $26K, while they'll replace her with someone they'll pay their dirt-cheap rate of $20K. If they figure I'll also get pissed off and quit, they can probably save another $15K when they replace me with a college graduate.
I don't want to be motivated just by money, and I don't think I am. But it's hard to feed a family of four on what I make here, the hours are brutal, and the work load keeps increasing. They're about to eliminate the production shop and have the managing editors handle all the pagination duties as well, as a cost-cutting measure. It's not like we don't already have to write four to six stories and four editorials a week, plus edit and lay out two whole papers.
I'm really sick of this. I sent out two resumes before I came to work today, on top of the two I sent out last week. I need another job, and I need it to be one where I can settle in for an extended period. Or I need my wife to find gainful employment so I can stay at home with the girls.
Something has to give. I just can't take this anymore.
Sunday, September 14, 2003
job references
A co-worker of mine asked me if I would act as a reference for him in the event he needs one. (Like me, he's fighting desparately to leave the newspaper we work at.) Below are some of the references I told him I would be happy to give:
- "As long as he remembers to take his medication and keeps away from sharp objects, Brian is a pleasant enough fellow to work with."
- "I urge you to waste no time in considering Brian for a position with your company."
- "I am moved to tears whenever I read something Brian writes."
- "Brian one day will be remembered in the same breath as other great men like Napoleon, Genghis Khan and Idi Amin."
- "Brian is a great guy to work with. True, he is dim-witted and rude, his table manners leave a lot to be desired, and he has a small, misshapen mind with a body to match, but he ... I'm sorry, I can't remember where I was going."
- "Brian is a simple, down-to-earth sort of fellow, much like you'd expect from someone whose parents met at a family reunion."
- "You might have doubts that Brian will be able to handle the responsibilities of the task he is applying for. I assure you that there's nothing to worry about; from everything I've seen here, he'll soon find someone else whom he get manipulate into doing the job for him."
- "Brian is the only former death-row inmate I know who can handle this job."
- "Well, I don't want to say too much in case he's got my line bugged, but Brian seems to know an awful lot about munitions and ordnance, and he's been interviewed by the FBI an awful lot lately..."
- "My God! Pedersen is applying there? Hire him, you fools! The last three people to turn him down all were found three days later, floating face-down in the Hudson."
Friday, May 23, 2003
job update
Well, what's next appears to be a promotion to the manager of a different office, a little further up the Parkway from where I work, overseeing a staff of three editors and their reporters, a copy editor and a receptionist/typist type.
I had remarked to Tim about a month ago that I'm feeling burnt out where I am right now. The work is essentially what I've been doing for a few years, with the result that I've been spinning my wheels and beginning to stagnate. Even before that conversation, I had started working with some of my co-workers from a mentor position, going over papers, layouts, headlines and stories with them with an eye toward what could have been done to make the paper better.
It appears that Tim has decided I'd be a good choice to engage in some of that on a formal basis in one of our other offices. What that would mean in terms of pay I don't know. Obviously, and as I told him, I'd like to get more money. I'm making about $35K now; I had been making $40K at The Times, and that was the first time Natasha and I were able to live moderately comfortably on my salary. It's been tight on what I'm making at WCN, and to be honest, we wouldn't be making it at all without the money Natasha pulls in from some free-lance work she does for Rutgers University. Now that we have Rachel as well as Evangeline, we really could use a bit more. I didn't name the figure, but $45K would be nice. (I actually said $60K would be nice, which it would, but I really don't think that's even in the realm of possibility.)
From what Tim told me, I'm already one of the three highest-paid managing editors, which is about what I had figured, so he's not sure how much more they could give me as a regional or associate editor, whatever my title would be.
Mixed feelings. It's a step up and it's a chance to develop new skills, and although I'm not wild about staying with a company as notoriously cheap as this one, I'm also not wild about changing jobs AGAIN. I've been with this one only a year, and before that it was unemployment for eight months, The Times for eight months, The Packet for three years, Forbes Newspapers for 18 months, various piddly jobs like gas station attendant and pizza guy over a 12-month period, teacher in Bethlehem, Pa., for a year, teacher in Port-au-Prince for a year, missionary for a year, and college student.
In other words, my work history has been marked by a lot of jumping, and I wouldn't mind a little stability and a natural progression through the ranks for a while before I leave the workforce for stay-at-home dadhood or to a job I really enjoy.
Another nice thing is that the job theoretically could be 9-to-5, which is what I'd like right now anyway, with the kids the age they are. The niggling suspicion there is that while Tim might not be consciously lying to me, he also said this current, 50-hour-a-week job only takes 40 hours, back when he hired me. We editors call that the big lie.
On top of that, the office where I would be working has two bits of its reputation that I don't like: 1) It's where they send people when they want them to quit; and 2) It has its own Reporter from Hell, and I've already had one of those in this job. Her replacement has been great -- the epitome of professional behavior, and I've tremendously enjoyed working with him. I'm really not eager to trade him in for someone who's been doing the job for so long he knows everything already and won't be taught. I've also seen a couple of the editors in action whom I would be dealing with, and I'm not terribly impressed.
I didn't tell Tim yea or nay, and he didn't push me for an answer either, which suggests it's not his plan to send me there to get rid of me. I told him I am interested, but would like to know more about what I would be doing (responsibilities and authorities), and how much I'd be making.
The implication I picked up was that the job is mine if I want it, and that he wants to have me moved in there by the end of next month. So we'll see.
I had remarked to Tim about a month ago that I'm feeling burnt out where I am right now. The work is essentially what I've been doing for a few years, with the result that I've been spinning my wheels and beginning to stagnate. Even before that conversation, I had started working with some of my co-workers from a mentor position, going over papers, layouts, headlines and stories with them with an eye toward what could have been done to make the paper better.
It appears that Tim has decided I'd be a good choice to engage in some of that on a formal basis in one of our other offices. What that would mean in terms of pay I don't know. Obviously, and as I told him, I'd like to get more money. I'm making about $35K now; I had been making $40K at The Times, and that was the first time Natasha and I were able to live moderately comfortably on my salary. It's been tight on what I'm making at WCN, and to be honest, we wouldn't be making it at all without the money Natasha pulls in from some free-lance work she does for Rutgers University. Now that we have Rachel as well as Evangeline, we really could use a bit more. I didn't name the figure, but $45K would be nice. (I actually said $60K would be nice, which it would, but I really don't think that's even in the realm of possibility.)
From what Tim told me, I'm already one of the three highest-paid managing editors, which is about what I had figured, so he's not sure how much more they could give me as a regional or associate editor, whatever my title would be.
Mixed feelings. It's a step up and it's a chance to develop new skills, and although I'm not wild about staying with a company as notoriously cheap as this one, I'm also not wild about changing jobs AGAIN. I've been with this one only a year, and before that it was unemployment for eight months, The Times for eight months, The Packet for three years, Forbes Newspapers for 18 months, various piddly jobs like gas station attendant and pizza guy over a 12-month period, teacher in Bethlehem, Pa., for a year, teacher in Port-au-Prince for a year, missionary for a year, and college student.
In other words, my work history has been marked by a lot of jumping, and I wouldn't mind a little stability and a natural progression through the ranks for a while before I leave the workforce for stay-at-home dadhood or to a job I really enjoy.
Another nice thing is that the job theoretically could be 9-to-5, which is what I'd like right now anyway, with the kids the age they are. The niggling suspicion there is that while Tim might not be consciously lying to me, he also said this current, 50-hour-a-week job only takes 40 hours, back when he hired me. We editors call that the big lie.
On top of that, the office where I would be working has two bits of its reputation that I don't like: 1) It's where they send people when they want them to quit; and 2) It has its own Reporter from Hell, and I've already had one of those in this job. Her replacement has been great -- the epitome of professional behavior, and I've tremendously enjoyed working with him. I'm really not eager to trade him in for someone who's been doing the job for so long he knows everything already and won't be taught. I've also seen a couple of the editors in action whom I would be dealing with, and I'm not terribly impressed.
I didn't tell Tim yea or nay, and he didn't push me for an answer either, which suggests it's not his plan to send me there to get rid of me. I told him I am interested, but would like to know more about what I would be doing (responsibilities and authorities), and how much I'd be making.
The implication I picked up was that the job is mine if I want it, and that he wants to have me moved in there by the end of next month. So we'll see.
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
work situation
Somehow in the past few weeks I have become the editor in the newsroom that everybody talks to about their job problems. Other editors are coming to me with questions about layout; reporters other than mine are asking me for ideas; I've been helping other editors brainstorm ideas for editorials and positions they can take. Even my supervisor has asked me questions about the computer system and how to get it to do what we want. Today one of our photographers told me, practically in tears, that she's being cut back from three days a week to one and she doesn't know what she's going to do to make ends meet.
It does get a little difficult. Everyone seems to be confiding in me about their frustrations with the job, and everyone's asking me for layout and editorial advice. I've essentially taken over the coaching duties the regional editor is supposed to do, but without any official bestowment or any effort on my part. It just happened, which I can't say I think Mike is likely to appreciate. He seems to think he does a great job as a manager by sitting in the corner and avoiding everyone, and he isn't likely to take it well that everyone seems to prefer me.
I don't generally seek positions of leadership, but this is a situation where it looks like leadership has been placed on me without my advance knowledge.
One wonders what's in store.
It does get a little difficult. Everyone seems to be confiding in me about their frustrations with the job, and everyone's asking me for layout and editorial advice. I've essentially taken over the coaching duties the regional editor is supposed to do, but without any official bestowment or any effort on my part. It just happened, which I can't say I think Mike is likely to appreciate. He seems to think he does a great job as a manager by sitting in the corner and avoiding everyone, and he isn't likely to take it well that everyone seems to prefer me.
I don't generally seek positions of leadership, but this is a situation where it looks like leadership has been placed on me without my advance knowledge.
One wonders what's in store.
Wednesday, April 09, 2003
on my own for the moment
At the moment, Evangeline is upstairs, sound asleep, and Natasha and Rachel are out at a book club Natasha belongs to. That leaves me pretty much on my own, so after wasting time I should have been putting to better uses, I'm here writing this.
Probably the biggest news we have right now is that Natasha is turning 28 this Friday. The girls and I went out this afternoon after I got home from work, and bought her some books in Frank Herbert's "Dune" series. I've never actually read the books, but they're generally regarded as a classic work of science-fiction. They're set on the desert world Arrakis and apparently delve into religious and political philosophies. (Two of the sequels are Dune Messiah and God Emperor of Dune, which says something, I suppose.) Natasha's been reading my copy of the first book and enjoying it immensely, so I'm hoping she enjoys the sequels.
I haven't had much time to do recreational reading, unfortunately. The most I've been able to do this year is to re-read "The Hobbit" and to start re-reading "The Fellowship of the Ring." Whoever said all that you need in life is God and books must have had more time than me.
Work is going well, although I remain frustrated with my experiences there and continue to hope (and look) for opportunities elsewhere. I recently spoke with Dick Willever, the Big Cheese editor down at The Princeton Packet, and they have filled a position there that I had applied for. Just as well, probably, since the only reason I had applied for it was to get out of my current situation. I need not to settle, and instead concentrate on finding something that will challenge and interest me instead of just changing the environment I get bored and frustrated in.
Probably the biggest news we have right now is that Natasha is turning 28 this Friday. The girls and I went out this afternoon after I got home from work, and bought her some books in Frank Herbert's "Dune" series. I've never actually read the books, but they're generally regarded as a classic work of science-fiction. They're set on the desert world Arrakis and apparently delve into religious and political philosophies. (Two of the sequels are Dune Messiah and God Emperor of Dune, which says something, I suppose.) Natasha's been reading my copy of the first book and enjoying it immensely, so I'm hoping she enjoys the sequels.
I haven't had much time to do recreational reading, unfortunately. The most I've been able to do this year is to re-read "The Hobbit" and to start re-reading "The Fellowship of the Ring." Whoever said all that you need in life is God and books must have had more time than me.
Work is going well, although I remain frustrated with my experiences there and continue to hope (and look) for opportunities elsewhere. I recently spoke with Dick Willever, the Big Cheese editor down at The Princeton Packet, and they have filled a position there that I had applied for. Just as well, probably, since the only reason I had applied for it was to get out of my current situation. I need not to settle, and instead concentrate on finding something that will challenge and interest me instead of just changing the environment I get bored and frustrated in.
Tuesday, March 11, 2003
my job is now more bearable
Well, we had some good news on the job front this week.
After remarking to Natasha Sunday afternoon that I really didn't want to go into work on Monday, I got a call Sunday night from my boss. It turns out that my Crane's Ford reporter came in sometime over the weekend, cleaned out her desk and left a written resignation, effective immediately.
I could feel the crimp in my back and neck loosen as Tim broke the news.
Apparently my ex-reporter is disgusted with the flagrant disrespect I show her, the way I butcher her stories, expect her to write about things other than the Crane's Ford Township Committee and was especially put off by the way I deliberately have removed her bylines from several stories ever since we got a new computer system and the way I messed up the IPA awards announcements where they listed her awards.
She's also horribly upset that the editor in chief didn't drop everything Thursday afternoon to listen to her unending litany of complaints, and can't continue to work where she's not appreciated.
I haven't said it publicly, but good riddance. She's been nothing but unprofessional the entire time I've worked with her. She's subjected me to an endless barrage of verbal abuse, and not just me but every one of my predecessors as well. She even went as far this weekend as emptying her Rolodex, dumping a bunch of papers on my desk, and knocking over my family pictures as well. The company has sent her a letter demanding the Rolodex contents be returned since the resource belongs to the company and not to the reporter, and even threatened legal action against her if she fails to provide it. I understand she's also barred from passing the foyer at the front of the building.
I'm sorry it had to work out this way, but I'm glad it's finally over. She probably doesn't realize it, but she in all likelihood has saved the company a lawsuit I was considering for when I find another job. (There was a little problem of the company being aware of a hostile work environment and failing to do anything to remedy the situation, see, but now it's been resolved.)
I still hope to get another job -- I don't like the hours this one requires, and the pay isn't enough to provide for my family -- but at least the wait will be a little more bearable now.
The sad thing is, my ex-reporter is probably waiting for the newspaper to call her and beg her to come back. I don't see that happening any time soon. Her unprofessional conduct has been a longstanding problem at the company, and I believe it has caused us a few problems in the community as well. We've lost her knowledge of the community as a result of her decision to leave, but a new reporter who knows what she's doing can get into the community quite well within three months or so -- and probably do a more balanced job covering it.
After remarking to Natasha Sunday afternoon that I really didn't want to go into work on Monday, I got a call Sunday night from my boss. It turns out that my Crane's Ford reporter came in sometime over the weekend, cleaned out her desk and left a written resignation, effective immediately.
I could feel the crimp in my back and neck loosen as Tim broke the news.
Apparently my ex-reporter is disgusted with the flagrant disrespect I show her, the way I butcher her stories, expect her to write about things other than the Crane's Ford Township Committee and was especially put off by the way I deliberately have removed her bylines from several stories ever since we got a new computer system and the way I messed up the IPA awards announcements where they listed her awards.
She's also horribly upset that the editor in chief didn't drop everything Thursday afternoon to listen to her unending litany of complaints, and can't continue to work where she's not appreciated.
I haven't said it publicly, but good riddance. She's been nothing but unprofessional the entire time I've worked with her. She's subjected me to an endless barrage of verbal abuse, and not just me but every one of my predecessors as well. She even went as far this weekend as emptying her Rolodex, dumping a bunch of papers on my desk, and knocking over my family pictures as well. The company has sent her a letter demanding the Rolodex contents be returned since the resource belongs to the company and not to the reporter, and even threatened legal action against her if she fails to provide it. I understand she's also barred from passing the foyer at the front of the building.
I'm sorry it had to work out this way, but I'm glad it's finally over. She probably doesn't realize it, but she in all likelihood has saved the company a lawsuit I was considering for when I find another job. (There was a little problem of the company being aware of a hostile work environment and failing to do anything to remedy the situation, see, but now it's been resolved.)
I still hope to get another job -- I don't like the hours this one requires, and the pay isn't enough to provide for my family -- but at least the wait will be a little more bearable now.
The sad thing is, my ex-reporter is probably waiting for the newspaper to call her and beg her to come back. I don't see that happening any time soon. Her unprofessional conduct has been a longstanding problem at the company, and I believe it has caused us a few problems in the community as well. We've lost her knowledge of the community as a result of her decision to leave, but a new reporter who knows what she's doing can get into the community quite well within three months or so -- and probably do a more balanced job covering it.
Wednesday, March 05, 2003
i hate my job
I long ago gave up trying to read God's mind. I'm convinced that's not how he works and not what a life of faith is about.
Things are building to a head right now, and I'm honestly not sure how much more I can take. I've started to send out resumes again, and am hoping to get something before I explode. I'm also mulling my legal options. My employer has allowed a hostile work environment to develop and has done virtually nothing to remedy the problems when they've been brought to management's attention. I don't approve of the litigious nature our society has developed; on the other hand, I don't like being treated like a doormat.
I sent one resume to a newspaper down in Central Jersey a couple days ago for an editing position there, but I'm also looking to possibly leave the newspaper business for other writing opportunities. Magazines would be nice -- and would pay better -- and I could stand doing media relations for certain groups as well.
I'd appreciate prayers for patience and grace during these next few weeks. Yesterday Cheryl accused me to my face and in the presence of the rest of the news room of purposely deleting her bylines and marring the press release about her flarking awards just to embarass her. She also wants to start backreading her own news copy after I edit it. I need to display the character of Christ, and if I get angry I'd rather it be a righteous anger than the kind I usually have. (I'm a patient sort, but I can be pushed too far.)
Thanks for your concern.
Things are building to a head right now, and I'm honestly not sure how much more I can take. I've started to send out resumes again, and am hoping to get something before I explode. I'm also mulling my legal options. My employer has allowed a hostile work environment to develop and has done virtually nothing to remedy the problems when they've been brought to management's attention. I don't approve of the litigious nature our society has developed; on the other hand, I don't like being treated like a doormat.
I sent one resume to a newspaper down in Central Jersey a couple days ago for an editing position there, but I'm also looking to possibly leave the newspaper business for other writing opportunities. Magazines would be nice -- and would pay better -- and I could stand doing media relations for certain groups as well.
I'd appreciate prayers for patience and grace during these next few weeks. Yesterday Cheryl accused me to my face and in the presence of the rest of the news room of purposely deleting her bylines and marring the press release about her flarking awards just to embarass her. She also wants to start backreading her own news copy after I edit it. I need to display the character of Christ, and if I get angry I'd rather it be a righteous anger than the kind I usually have. (I'm a patient sort, but I can be pushed too far.)
Thanks for your concern.
Tuesday, February 25, 2003
A clarification for those who need it
I guess I wasn't very clear, was I?
I work too many hours a week doing something that has become so familiar to me that it's ceased to be interesting except for times I'm able to do something really creative and fun with it, like the big spread I got to do last month on the Canada geese problem in Quakertown.
The product that we put out is inferior, and I can't stand having my name attached to it. My Crane's Ford reporter has been writing for 14 years and still can't write worth crap. Her stories are incomprehensible, which means I have to spend as much time editing them as I do writing my own.
She's obnoxious and condescending, thinks nothing of berating me in front of the rest of the newsroom but won't take criticism in private, and refuses to learn new ways to do her job. I've caught her plagiarising not once or twice but three times and she still works there, and her bias is so thick I could choke an editor with it. Actually, I have choked on it several times.
We're given no real support in terms of the job we do. Until November our terminals were 30-year-old MycroTech machines that lacked even an oops key or spell check. Our phone system is antiquated and now that it's starting to die on us, reporters are being left without phones of their own.
I'm asked to do essentially two jobs: Edit two newspapers and report for one of them. That raises questions in my mind about journalistic credibility within the community since everyone knows I'm writing editorials about the stories I'm covering, but no one up above seems to care.
The pay is low and apparently done without regard to a salary scale. I've been with the company since June and make $35,000 a year. I discovered a co-worker of mine has been with them for four years and is now an associate editor -- he outranks me -- and makes only $28,000. Our chief photographer makes only $24,000 a year.
Quality apparently doesn't matter. As I said, my reporter overwrites and writes badly, but has been here for four years despite her problems, which are readily acknowledged by higher-ups. Another reporter has been here for seven years and all she does is rewrite press releases from the Union County Prosecutor's Office.
Another reporter, new to the business, has discovered he can get by with writing four stories a week about two towns -- barely enough to fill the front page. We have two photographers who take absolutely pathetic shots. A few of us care, but the company's apathy is driving us nuts. As I told a new editor last week, after a few months, you give up, and then something inside you starts to die a little more each day.
If I had a viable job offer doing something other than journalism, I would take it in a heartbeat. I believe in what I do, I just can't stand where I'm doing it.
God doesn't promise us happiness, nor does he promise us self-actualization or career contentment. He does promise us suffering galore if we follow him, but I don't believe this is what he meant. This is drudgery -- the sort of thing promised after the Fall, as part of a curse we're not obliged to live under if we live a life of faith.
I want out. I need out, before I go crazy and sell Girl Scout cookies made from chopped-up imitation Girl Scouts (like I want to go through that again). The economy sucks, and no one's hiring.
Bleagh.
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This has been a self-pitying public service announcement. Thank you.
I work too many hours a week doing something that has become so familiar to me that it's ceased to be interesting except for times I'm able to do something really creative and fun with it, like the big spread I got to do last month on the Canada geese problem in Quakertown.
The product that we put out is inferior, and I can't stand having my name attached to it. My Crane's Ford reporter has been writing for 14 years and still can't write worth crap. Her stories are incomprehensible, which means I have to spend as much time editing them as I do writing my own.
She's obnoxious and condescending, thinks nothing of berating me in front of the rest of the newsroom but won't take criticism in private, and refuses to learn new ways to do her job. I've caught her plagiarising not once or twice but three times and she still works there, and her bias is so thick I could choke an editor with it. Actually, I have choked on it several times.
We're given no real support in terms of the job we do. Until November our terminals were 30-year-old MycroTech machines that lacked even an oops key or spell check. Our phone system is antiquated and now that it's starting to die on us, reporters are being left without phones of their own.
I'm asked to do essentially two jobs: Edit two newspapers and report for one of them. That raises questions in my mind about journalistic credibility within the community since everyone knows I'm writing editorials about the stories I'm covering, but no one up above seems to care.
The pay is low and apparently done without regard to a salary scale. I've been with the company since June and make $35,000 a year. I discovered a co-worker of mine has been with them for four years and is now an associate editor -- he outranks me -- and makes only $28,000. Our chief photographer makes only $24,000 a year.
Quality apparently doesn't matter. As I said, my reporter overwrites and writes badly, but has been here for four years despite her problems, which are readily acknowledged by higher-ups. Another reporter has been here for seven years and all she does is rewrite press releases from the Union County Prosecutor's Office.
Another reporter, new to the business, has discovered he can get by with writing four stories a week about two towns -- barely enough to fill the front page. We have two photographers who take absolutely pathetic shots. A few of us care, but the company's apathy is driving us nuts. As I told a new editor last week, after a few months, you give up, and then something inside you starts to die a little more each day.
If I had a viable job offer doing something other than journalism, I would take it in a heartbeat. I believe in what I do, I just can't stand where I'm doing it.
God doesn't promise us happiness, nor does he promise us self-actualization or career contentment. He does promise us suffering galore if we follow him, but I don't believe this is what he meant. This is drudgery -- the sort of thing promised after the Fall, as part of a curse we're not obliged to live under if we live a life of faith.
I want out. I need out, before I go crazy and sell Girl Scout cookies made from chopped-up imitation Girl Scouts (like I want to go through that again). The economy sucks, and no one's hiring.
Bleagh.
I hate my job.
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This has been a self-pitying public service announcement. Thank you.
Monday, February 24, 2003
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This has been a public-service announcement. Thank you.
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This has been a public-service announcement. Thank you.
Sunday, February 16, 2003
personal update
As I start to write this, snow is falling outside for at least the sixth consecutive hour. It started around 3:30 p.m., and is not supposed to stop until we've had anywhere from one to two feet.
Natasha and I got back about a half-hour or 45 minutes ago from a dinner with another couple and the pastor of the church we've been attending for the last month or so. The church unfortunately is named Cross Pointe — I say unfortunately because the last church we were involved in was named Crosspointe, and the associations are not positive ones — but we are considering joining the church and settling in for the long haul.
On the plus side of the church is that the church has a solid basis in Scripture. Sermons are at once practical and insightful — last Sunday, the pastor preached on Psalm 23 and actually gave me something to think about, which is pretty rare on a passage as popular as that one — the worship is contemporary, and the people seem friendly enough. Their goal is to reach students at the nearby university and seminary, actively engage the surrounding area and, oh, all kinds of other neat stuff.
The downside, of course, is that while they have these really nifty goals and have a few rough ideas on how they hope to accomplish them, the impression I got from talking to the pastor tonight is that they're really not entirely sure about that middle part, of how to get there. I'm sure you can see why I feel right at home in such a place.
More practically speaking, the church is located about 25 minutes south of here, and has virtually no children's ministry in place. That's a bit of a disappointment for us because Evangeline and Rachel are both children, and Evangeline in particular would benefit from a regular Sunday school or children's church experience. The distance also could be a barrier of sorts since it could limit our regular involvement in the church and the larger community. Not sure, though. We'll have to see. Certainly I've known elders who have lived farther than that from their church.
I'm fairly keen on the idea of settling in here. I left Crosspointe back in the late spring or early summer, and am ready to settle into a new place. Despite the name -- I really wish they would change it -- I do like Cross Pointe, and would like to be involved with it. I've been doing a little, by suggesting and providing video clips to accompany the sermons, and spoke earlier today with somebody who hopes to start a church drama ministry (something I helped to do back at Crosspointe), so we'll see. I also mentioned to the pastor that I have an idea for a Sunday school class I'd like to run by him, but we'll have to see how things go.
The Sunday school class would be a little different from most Sunday school fare. My thought is to look at a different popular movie or TV series over a one-month period, and engage the class in literary criticism; i.e., what sort of message is this show sending about authority, morality, God? How does it act as a springboard for sharing the gospel?
"The Lorax" video, for example, has the Lorax rise into the air near the end of the special, with the promise that he could return with the hummingfish, Barbaloots and others if only someone will take care of the environment better than the Onceler has. In other words, the Lorax has Christ imagery attached to him, which makes him a point of contact with Christianity, as Christians can then talk about our own hopes of renewal and environmental stewardship.
I think it could be a fun class, but it depends on the interest and the resources I have available, as well as how much latitude I'm given in what to discuss. I doubt many churches would want their members watching "Sex and the City" or "The Sopranos" for a Sunday school class, for example, even though there's probably plenty of stuff to discuss there. (I don't know what, though, since I've never seen any of it.)
That's church stuff. Work has kind of sucked lately, and I'll be glad once another job surfaces that I can take. I started working at WCN Newspapers in June 2002, mainly because it was a job I was offered that I knew I could do in my sleep and because I had been unemployed since October 2001.
I had hoped I could stick it out a little longer, and I may have to, but the job is driving me nuts. The hours have been closer to 50 a week than to 40, the pay is only $35,000, and I've been working out the wazoo on Mondays and Tuesdays with the result I've often missed seeing Evangeline while she's awake on those days. Not a good deal.
I finally reached a breaking point of a sorts this past week. I decided that if I know I have a late meeting, I am not leaving until after Evangeline has been awake and we've played a little. I modified it later that week to work out a regular schedule I'm hoping I'll be able to stick to without failing to do my job or blowing off my family. My goal is to work 40 hours a week only, with something like 10 each on Monday and Tuesday, four on Wednesday and nine each on Thursday and Friday. In the meantime I'm praying hard for a new job and looking to see what turns up.
The good news professionally is that the state press association awards are due to be announced next weekend. My editor in chief got some advance notice of the awards when the association people called to confirm a few bits of information, and apparently I'm one of a few people at the company who "did well." I don't know if that means I won first place, or anything down to third place, but I'm hoping it means I've won a few awards, if for no other reason than they'll look good on the resume.
On a personal note, Evangeline started preschool this past week. We decided to enroll her to expand her social horizons a bit and expose her to skills and ideas that don't occur to us as quickly as they do to other people.
I wouldn't exactly say she likes it. Apparently she gets upset when it's time to leave and goes as far as sitting down in the parking lot because she doesn't want to go home. Preschool is every Tuesday and Thursday, and she has asked every other day of the week as well if she can go to preschool. She might inform us when she gets older that home-schooling is not going to be an option.
If that happens, we'll have to look into private schools since there's no way I want her going to Nova Bastille's public schools. (Among other things, the schools here have over a 50 percent drop-out rate, there's the gang activity, and plenty of other problems besides. Not the sort of thing I want to send Evangeline into.)
Evangeline took another big step this week. If you think I wasn't ready for her to attend preschool, you'd be right, but that's nothing compared to how I felt about this: Natasha and I have stopped being mommy and daddy. With a few exceptions, Evangeline has been calling us mom and dad. We still use the longer forms to refer to ourselves, but she seems to have decided she's too big to call us mommy and daddy. I'm not ready to be dad yet. That's not supposed to come for another two or even three years.
Also on the subject of Evangeline, her hair finally is long enough for her to do something she's been trying for over a year: put it into a ponytail. It's short -- about 3 inches -- and most of her hair doesn't tie back into the tail yet, but she's very proud of it. After all, daddy has a ponytail and mommy has a ponytail — maybe I should have said mom and dad have ponytails, but like I said, I'm not ready for that yet — so now she has one. She's a Big Girl, after all.
Rachel is starting to become the little babbler. She's about 3½ months old now, and has started making the neatest cooing and trilling noises. Naturally I've thrown all sense of self-image to the wind, and I coo and trill right back at her. She's got the neatest little smile, and her blue eyes sparkle whenever she sees me imitating her. People give me strange looks, but I really don't care. I'm in love.
We didn't see Lumpy this weekend, to my disappointment. On the other hand, he was here for a birthday party last Sunday with his father, grandmother and two of his cousins, and that went well. I'm sure we'll see more of him again soon, just not this weekend. Rats.
This past week was also the week I hit the books again. I've been reading Tolkien's "The Hobbit" for I think the fourth time, but I also just read Neil Gaiman's "Neverwhere" for the first time. Gaiman is the author of "The Sandman," an award-winning horror comic DC Comics published several years ago as part of its Vertigo line. "Neverwhere" isn't as groundbreaking a work as "The Sandman," probably because novels traditionally have had looser boundaries than comics have in the past forty years, but it's still one heck of a page-turner.
Probably the best way to describe "Neverwhere" is to say it's a dark, postmodern "Alice in Wonderland." The story centers on Richard Mayhew, a fairly ordinary fellow who's got the standard life and is going pretty much nowhere, and is content with it. Because it's a Gaiman novel, Mayhew ends up being swept into an otherworldly London that exists alongside the London in our world, but underground and generally accessible only to people who live there.
The book plays with a number of the historic names in London, particularly along its subway, and gives them literal meanings. "Blackfriars Station," for example, is a station where a sect of friars live — though again, you can only discover them if you happen to live in this unseen shadow world.
It's a good book, and has Gaiman's trademark motif of mixing the utterly fantastic with the utterly mundane in a way that makes them both novel.
I also recently read the first volume of "Rising Stars," a comic book by J. Michael Straczynski, the creator of "Babylon 5." I've seen a few "Babylon 5" episodes, but never liked them enough to watch the show on a regular basis. This comic might actually change that.
"Rising Stars" uses the major conceit of comic books, superpowers; but it treats them in what seems to me to be an original and well-thought-out manner. Its explanation of how the superpowers came to this group of people is about as contrived as any other explanation — a mysterious ball of energy hits a town and affects the fetal development of about 70 children there — but that's about where its conventional treatment of the superhero trope ends.
Powers range from the standard "Hey look, Ma, I can fly and I'm super strong!" to the unusual "Everyone sees me as what they imagine the most beautiful woman in the world would be" to the dull "I can levitate and make pretty sparkles in the air."
What really makes the comic unique is that these are people, not superheroes. One or two of them do do the costume thing, but they're generally regarded as flakes or opportunists cashing in on the idea of superheroics by the rest of the "specials." One uses his ability to enter people's dreams to become a psychologist; another, blessed with the power of invincibility, grows obese, and eventually becomes an indestructible gas station attendant.
Since none of the powers came with a how-to manual, each of the affected children had to figure out naturally what their powers are, just as real-life children have to figure what they can and can't do. A couple, even as adults, have no idea what their powers are.
That's the setup. The comic gets really interesting when a few of the specials start realizing their powers are wearing out, that the more they use them, the less potent they are. Where it gets ineresting is that if any of the others die, their untapped power spreads to the rest of the pool. The first volume in the series ends with some of the specials capitalizing on that, and all hell breaking loose as everybody grows more powerful, as old personality conflicts and feuds start to erupt.
That's all I've been up to this past week. I've been stuck on the book I've been writing with my best friend; I have ideas, but I'm having trouble writing them due to a lack of time and a lack of concentration. Sleep would probably help with the latter but not the former. I really want to get this done, especially since I'm the one who's held the book back so long.
It's almost time to go to bed. I just looked out the window, and it's still pouring snow. You can tell that I shoveled the walk when Natasha and I got home by the indentation in the snowdrifts. One of the nice parts about having all this snow is that I can pile it on each side of the end of the driveway and make it impossible for people to park there and block us in even partially. I'll be doing that again tomorrow, since we have Presidents Day off from work. (I still can't figure that one out.)
Natasha and I got back about a half-hour or 45 minutes ago from a dinner with another couple and the pastor of the church we've been attending for the last month or so. The church unfortunately is named Cross Pointe — I say unfortunately because the last church we were involved in was named Crosspointe, and the associations are not positive ones — but we are considering joining the church and settling in for the long haul.
On the plus side of the church is that the church has a solid basis in Scripture. Sermons are at once practical and insightful — last Sunday, the pastor preached on Psalm 23 and actually gave me something to think about, which is pretty rare on a passage as popular as that one — the worship is contemporary, and the people seem friendly enough. Their goal is to reach students at the nearby university and seminary, actively engage the surrounding area and, oh, all kinds of other neat stuff.
The downside, of course, is that while they have these really nifty goals and have a few rough ideas on how they hope to accomplish them, the impression I got from talking to the pastor tonight is that they're really not entirely sure about that middle part, of how to get there. I'm sure you can see why I feel right at home in such a place.
More practically speaking, the church is located about 25 minutes south of here, and has virtually no children's ministry in place. That's a bit of a disappointment for us because Evangeline and Rachel are both children, and Evangeline in particular would benefit from a regular Sunday school or children's church experience. The distance also could be a barrier of sorts since it could limit our regular involvement in the church and the larger community. Not sure, though. We'll have to see. Certainly I've known elders who have lived farther than that from their church.
I'm fairly keen on the idea of settling in here. I left Crosspointe back in the late spring or early summer, and am ready to settle into a new place. Despite the name -- I really wish they would change it -- I do like Cross Pointe, and would like to be involved with it. I've been doing a little, by suggesting and providing video clips to accompany the sermons, and spoke earlier today with somebody who hopes to start a church drama ministry (something I helped to do back at Crosspointe), so we'll see. I also mentioned to the pastor that I have an idea for a Sunday school class I'd like to run by him, but we'll have to see how things go.
The Sunday school class would be a little different from most Sunday school fare. My thought is to look at a different popular movie or TV series over a one-month period, and engage the class in literary criticism; i.e., what sort of message is this show sending about authority, morality, God? How does it act as a springboard for sharing the gospel?
"The Lorax" video, for example, has the Lorax rise into the air near the end of the special, with the promise that he could return with the hummingfish, Barbaloots and others if only someone will take care of the environment better than the Onceler has. In other words, the Lorax has Christ imagery attached to him, which makes him a point of contact with Christianity, as Christians can then talk about our own hopes of renewal and environmental stewardship.
I think it could be a fun class, but it depends on the interest and the resources I have available, as well as how much latitude I'm given in what to discuss. I doubt many churches would want their members watching "Sex and the City" or "The Sopranos" for a Sunday school class, for example, even though there's probably plenty of stuff to discuss there. (I don't know what, though, since I've never seen any of it.)
That's church stuff. Work has kind of sucked lately, and I'll be glad once another job surfaces that I can take. I started working at WCN Newspapers in June 2002, mainly because it was a job I was offered that I knew I could do in my sleep and because I had been unemployed since October 2001.
I had hoped I could stick it out a little longer, and I may have to, but the job is driving me nuts. The hours have been closer to 50 a week than to 40, the pay is only $35,000, and I've been working out the wazoo on Mondays and Tuesdays with the result I've often missed seeing Evangeline while she's awake on those days. Not a good deal.
I finally reached a breaking point of a sorts this past week. I decided that if I know I have a late meeting, I am not leaving until after Evangeline has been awake and we've played a little. I modified it later that week to work out a regular schedule I'm hoping I'll be able to stick to without failing to do my job or blowing off my family. My goal is to work 40 hours a week only, with something like 10 each on Monday and Tuesday, four on Wednesday and nine each on Thursday and Friday. In the meantime I'm praying hard for a new job and looking to see what turns up.
The good news professionally is that the state press association awards are due to be announced next weekend. My editor in chief got some advance notice of the awards when the association people called to confirm a few bits of information, and apparently I'm one of a few people at the company who "did well." I don't know if that means I won first place, or anything down to third place, but I'm hoping it means I've won a few awards, if for no other reason than they'll look good on the resume.
On a personal note, Evangeline started preschool this past week. We decided to enroll her to expand her social horizons a bit and expose her to skills and ideas that don't occur to us as quickly as they do to other people.
I wouldn't exactly say she likes it. Apparently she gets upset when it's time to leave and goes as far as sitting down in the parking lot because she doesn't want to go home. Preschool is every Tuesday and Thursday, and she has asked every other day of the week as well if she can go to preschool. She might inform us when she gets older that home-schooling is not going to be an option.
If that happens, we'll have to look into private schools since there's no way I want her going to Nova Bastille's public schools. (Among other things, the schools here have over a 50 percent drop-out rate, there's the gang activity, and plenty of other problems besides. Not the sort of thing I want to send Evangeline into.)
Evangeline took another big step this week. If you think I wasn't ready for her to attend preschool, you'd be right, but that's nothing compared to how I felt about this: Natasha and I have stopped being mommy and daddy. With a few exceptions, Evangeline has been calling us mom and dad. We still use the longer forms to refer to ourselves, but she seems to have decided she's too big to call us mommy and daddy. I'm not ready to be dad yet. That's not supposed to come for another two or even three years.
Also on the subject of Evangeline, her hair finally is long enough for her to do something she's been trying for over a year: put it into a ponytail. It's short -- about 3 inches -- and most of her hair doesn't tie back into the tail yet, but she's very proud of it. After all, daddy has a ponytail and mommy has a ponytail — maybe I should have said mom and dad have ponytails, but like I said, I'm not ready for that yet — so now she has one. She's a Big Girl, after all.
Rachel is starting to become the little babbler. She's about 3½ months old now, and has started making the neatest cooing and trilling noises. Naturally I've thrown all sense of self-image to the wind, and I coo and trill right back at her. She's got the neatest little smile, and her blue eyes sparkle whenever she sees me imitating her. People give me strange looks, but I really don't care. I'm in love.
We didn't see Lumpy this weekend, to my disappointment. On the other hand, he was here for a birthday party last Sunday with his father, grandmother and two of his cousins, and that went well. I'm sure we'll see more of him again soon, just not this weekend. Rats.
This past week was also the week I hit the books again. I've been reading Tolkien's "The Hobbit" for I think the fourth time, but I also just read Neil Gaiman's "Neverwhere" for the first time. Gaiman is the author of "The Sandman," an award-winning horror comic DC Comics published several years ago as part of its Vertigo line. "Neverwhere" isn't as groundbreaking a work as "The Sandman," probably because novels traditionally have had looser boundaries than comics have in the past forty years, but it's still one heck of a page-turner.
Probably the best way to describe "Neverwhere" is to say it's a dark, postmodern "Alice in Wonderland." The story centers on Richard Mayhew, a fairly ordinary fellow who's got the standard life and is going pretty much nowhere, and is content with it. Because it's a Gaiman novel, Mayhew ends up being swept into an otherworldly London that exists alongside the London in our world, but underground and generally accessible only to people who live there.
The book plays with a number of the historic names in London, particularly along its subway, and gives them literal meanings. "Blackfriars Station," for example, is a station where a sect of friars live — though again, you can only discover them if you happen to live in this unseen shadow world.
It's a good book, and has Gaiman's trademark motif of mixing the utterly fantastic with the utterly mundane in a way that makes them both novel.
I also recently read the first volume of "Rising Stars," a comic book by J. Michael Straczynski, the creator of "Babylon 5." I've seen a few "Babylon 5" episodes, but never liked them enough to watch the show on a regular basis. This comic might actually change that.
"Rising Stars" uses the major conceit of comic books, superpowers; but it treats them in what seems to me to be an original and well-thought-out manner. Its explanation of how the superpowers came to this group of people is about as contrived as any other explanation — a mysterious ball of energy hits a town and affects the fetal development of about 70 children there — but that's about where its conventional treatment of the superhero trope ends.
Powers range from the standard "Hey look, Ma, I can fly and I'm super strong!" to the unusual "Everyone sees me as what they imagine the most beautiful woman in the world would be" to the dull "I can levitate and make pretty sparkles in the air."
What really makes the comic unique is that these are people, not superheroes. One or two of them do do the costume thing, but they're generally regarded as flakes or opportunists cashing in on the idea of superheroics by the rest of the "specials." One uses his ability to enter people's dreams to become a psychologist; another, blessed with the power of invincibility, grows obese, and eventually becomes an indestructible gas station attendant.
Since none of the powers came with a how-to manual, each of the affected children had to figure out naturally what their powers are, just as real-life children have to figure what they can and can't do. A couple, even as adults, have no idea what their powers are.
That's the setup. The comic gets really interesting when a few of the specials start realizing their powers are wearing out, that the more they use them, the less potent they are. Where it gets ineresting is that if any of the others die, their untapped power spreads to the rest of the pool. The first volume in the series ends with some of the specials capitalizing on that, and all hell breaking loose as everybody grows more powerful, as old personality conflicts and feuds start to erupt.
That's all I've been up to this past week. I've been stuck on the book I've been writing with my best friend; I have ideas, but I'm having trouble writing them due to a lack of time and a lack of concentration. Sleep would probably help with the latter but not the former. I really want to get this done, especially since I'm the one who's held the book back so long.
It's almost time to go to bed. I just looked out the window, and it's still pouring snow. You can tell that I shoveled the walk when Natasha and I got home by the indentation in the snowdrifts. One of the nice parts about having all this snow is that I can pile it on each side of the end of the driveway and make it impossible for people to park there and block us in even partially. I'll be doing that again tomorrow, since we have Presidents Day off from work. (I still can't figure that one out.)
Saturday, July 13, 2002
back to work
Once again I am underemployed in the newspaper business where I am trying to provide for a family of four (soon to be five) on an annual income of $35,000 (before taxes).
I recently accepted a job at WCN Newspapers in Union, as the managing editor of the Crane's Ford Eagle and the Quakertown Eagle. No, I have no idea why they are called the "Eagle." Up until June, The Princeton Packet was the oddest name I'd ever heard for a newspaper.
I also had applied for a position at Focus on the Family for a web-based position. Unfortunately, they decided they could save money and get better results by giving the job to a trained lemur from Pasadena, Calif. No, seriously, I wasn't told why I was turned down (aside from the standard say-nothing explanation), but I suspect it's because I'm unable/unwilling to relocate to Colorado until the situation with my foster son has been resolved.
A couple people I know think I made a mistake in taking that position, but it doesn't seem fair to a kid who was abused for two years to throw him to the wolves just to give my career a massive boost in terms of exposure and higher-profile writing.
Besides, the fact that I was considered at all is nice in itself, and if I can get my fat butt in gear I think I should be able to swing some free-lance writing gigs at Focus.
I recently accepted a job at WCN Newspapers in Union, as the managing editor of the Crane's Ford Eagle and the Quakertown Eagle. No, I have no idea why they are called the "Eagle." Up until June, The Princeton Packet was the oddest name I'd ever heard for a newspaper.
I also had applied for a position at Focus on the Family for a web-based position. Unfortunately, they decided they could save money and get better results by giving the job to a trained lemur from Pasadena, Calif. No, seriously, I wasn't told why I was turned down (aside from the standard say-nothing explanation), but I suspect it's because I'm unable/unwilling to relocate to Colorado until the situation with my foster son has been resolved.
A couple people I know think I made a mistake in taking that position, but it doesn't seem fair to a kid who was abused for two years to throw him to the wolves just to give my career a massive boost in terms of exposure and higher-profile writing.
Besides, the fact that I was considered at all is nice in itself, and if I can get my fat butt in gear I think I should be able to swing some free-lance writing gigs at Focus.
Monday, May 13, 2002
job search
I'd like a job that pays about $40K a year, or more. It needs to involve some mixture of writing and editing, or I'll go insane. It doesn't have to be for a Christian ministry -- I actually haven't done that since I was a missionary, and see working in the "secular" world as advantageous in many ways -- and there is no way under God's blue heaven I can see myself working for Benny "Little Jehovah" Hinn or another of his ilk, given various biblical injunctions about having nothing to do with such men.
A lot of flexibility otherwise. Big Idea's H.R. department called my resume "impressive," but immediately followed up that word with the conjunction "unfortunately" and the independent clause "we have no jobs that match someone with your interests and skills," even though I had applied for a position that did match those skills and was posted on their web site.
But I'm not bitter. (The fiends.)
As for technical writing, I've done some on a free-lance basis. While I won't say it's the best way to spend an evening (or even an afternoon), it beats the pants off seeing my kids go hungry. I would do it if I could get a job doing it.
A lot of flexibility otherwise. Big Idea's H.R. department called my resume "impressive," but immediately followed up that word with the conjunction "unfortunately" and the independent clause "we have no jobs that match someone with your interests and skills," even though I had applied for a position that did match those skills and was posted on their web site.
But I'm not bitter. (The fiends.)
As for technical writing, I've done some on a free-lance basis. While I won't say it's the best way to spend an evening (or even an afternoon), it beats the pants off seeing my kids go hungry. I would do it if I could get a job doing it.
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